The "what-ifs" come creeping into my head and I find that it takes a lot of prayer and positive self-talk to fend them off. However, I really feel that God is IN this-it's hard to explain that-but I still don't feel ready.
It seems we just got settled into some routines here in this house. For one, we finally figured out how to jerry-rig the kitchen light to stay on! We like our barrio park and have made some friends with the neighbors. (Our awesome neighbors Brian and Molly on the other side too!) We like the paved roads and having a gas line to the house. (it's the little things ☺) I really enjoy the lime tree that gives us a constant supply for making fresh limonada! I quite like the fact that Bella has figured out how to climb the huge tree in the backyard and has also set up a little star-gazing place on the car-port roof. I will also miss the taxi operator recognizing my voice and not needing to hear the whole address because she already has us on her "regulars" map... I'm sad to leave. I guess it comes down to having to say goodbye yet again to another set of things (and people) we have grown to love. My heart is tired of goodbyes.
What is God teaching me/us by these changes? What haven't we learned that we need to learn this time? Is this all really necessary?! dohh.
And now for the pull yourself together speech.
We are only moving about 2 miles away, we have lots of help from church and community friends, we have Skype (for Pete's sake!) What am I getting all upset about?! Yep, that's all true. Jesus said, "Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. "For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Help me remember this everyday!
My prayer for the next few months is for calm; for a sense that I'm not alone and that God will see us through until we are together again. I also will be praying for protection for Myron while he travels, talks and spends time with a lot of people in Western Canada and also in the States. That he will be a blessing and encourager to everyone he meets. That we will both be filled with grace and love and that God will continue working out His purpose for us both in the weeks we are separated. Let it be as God wills (but I'm still not ready).
In the meantime, limonada sounds mighty refreshing...